Why me? Coping with Breast Cancer

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The one question I have not ever asked since October 27 is…..why me?

I’ve had a lot of other questions on my mind now that cancer is part of my daily dialogue, but I’ve never wondered why this is happening to me.

Some of you know that I listen to Joel Osteen every morning on Sirius. His messages are right at thirty minutes which fits in perfectly with my commute to work. I’ve been listening to him since 2013. Hearing Joel’s daily reminders that God’s perfect plan for us is wholly unique and meant for our goodness has resonated with me.

I can’t describe the peace I have felt during these weeks after the diagnosis. It is not my strength, but the Lord’s. I truly believe that listening to messages of faith and God’s promises for abundance & hope created this path of peace for me.

“For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory.” – 2 Corintians 4:17

A quote from Joel:

“He said His plans for us are for good to give us a bright future. That doesn’t mean bad things won’t happen along the way, but God knows how to use it for good. He wouldn’t have allowed it if it wasn’t going to work to our advantage.”

So, I’m ok with this whole cancer thing.

It is part of my life’s narrative for reasons I just don’t know yet…but I do trust God.

I won’t ever ask why me.

Do I wish I could take this away from my family? In a heartbeat.

The next few months will be easier on me then them.

Cancer takes your family and shakes everything upside down. Cancer is greedy. It doesn’t just affect its victim, but everyone around them.

My husband and family will be putting their lives on hold for a few weeks to care for me before, during and after my surgery.

I wish I could take my cancer away from them…..but none of us are questioning why God has placed this in our lives.

#FightLikeAGirl #Believe

Blessings,

Heather

PS: If you are curious how my new job literally saved my life, click here!

UPDATE: This post was written prior to the knowledge that my cancer was actually metastatic and Stage 3. Nothing has change. I’m facing chemo next week, and my convictions have not faltered. God is with us. Even with odd side effects and chemo brain, I still have the #JoyOfJesus !